What 2017 Has Taught Me
2017 taught me that family comes first and family is my rock. We may argue and compete over stupid things, but always, always have each other’s back when times got tough.
2017 taught me to appreciate time better. Time with my children, husband, family, and more importantly, questioning, “have I spent my time enough to please my Maker?” (Clearly, and sadly, no)
2017 taught me that I can’t have it all. I had my ups in certain area but certainly downs in others. 2017 taught me that I need to set my priorities straight. Insyaallah and Bismillah, I’m more sure than ever what those priorities are.
2017 taught me that I have been more judgmental in the last few years. I’m embarrased to say this, but I sometime felt I’m better than some people and I saw the worst in people, while they were actually just being normal and human. I learn that while positive energy are infectious, so does negative energy. It drains you, darkens you and make you bitter.
I’m thankful that in the last few months of 2017, I realised this and little by little was able to eliminate this feeling. The result is: I’m happier, my heart is lighter, I bear less grudges, and see more good in others.
I remember I was always serene like this for my whole life until a few years back. A lot has happened in the last few years where I felt like spiraling into a different version of me, which I don’t really like. Now, I feel like slowly coming back to that serene state again. Hopefully I’m stronger now and not let myself dragged into that vicious cycle.
2017 taught me to see more clearly, who were being sincere friends and they bring out the good in me and makes me close to the Almighty. These are the people I want to spend more time with.
2017 taught me to have more faith in Allah’s plan. Whatever we deemed best for us, doesn’t necessary mean the best according to His plan. We (Pandu and I) feel much better when after we work our best, humbly pray for whatever best for our family, then we fully submit to Allah’s plan. Whatever it may be. After all, He is the greatest planner.
Bismillah for 2018, our best year yet, aamiin.